Figured I'd Jump On the Band Wagon

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Major Depression:	Very High
Dysthymia:	Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Moderate
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Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Slight
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My mom's other cat Jack, who is also Purple's brother.

My mom's youngest cat Logan.

A close up of my mom's cat Purple.

A red squirrel that Chris took a picture of at my mom's.

Gotta love tree mushroms.

I like finding old recked vehicles in the middle of the woods. Always makes you wonder how they got there.

Odd place for these things.

This area is all swampy, so most things are dead and rotting.So much beauty in dead things.

This is the other side of the pond. I found it funny that the water doesn't even go through the cement pipes any more it goes all around them.

This was a little caterpillar cacoon that looks like it got caught in the frost and never hatched.

Second pond pic, it has a stone wall going right through the middle of it, beautiful. This place is awesome in the winter too, because it freezes over and you can go sliding around on it.

This is one of two images of a beautiful pond that is beside the road.

100th Post!

We interrupt these fabulous pictures to inform you that we have finally made it to the 100th post. Yes, that's right 100.

A rock wall we saw while walking down the road.

The old road by my mom's house.

Eastery Goodness

I went to my mom's yesterday and it was awesome. Chris and I took I walk and took some excellent pics that I will be posting later. We had lots of fun. Grammy was there and mom, Nate, Tony and Grampa came up to eat :p. The food was great of course, since me and mom made it together. She did most of the work of course, her kitchen and all, plus there is the whole pride thing in making dinner for your family which I am willing to give to mom. It was great, I got to spend the day with my Monmouth family which is always nice. Grammy was in a really great mood and she really seemed to be having a good time which is always a plus. Then the coolest thing happened. I had taken a bite off from the spoon in the potatoe salad earlier and mom yelled at me, then when we were all sitting down to eat. Grammy was making her plate and I told her that she should try the potato salad before she put a lot on her plate because there was a lot of vinegar in it and she took a bite off from the spoon too lol. Gee I wonder who I take after. I yell just like her, I'm a stubborn person just like her. I'd say stubborn old lady, but I'm not to old lol. I am so thankful for my family. I love them all so deeply. Let's make a list :p. Grammy, Grampa, mom, Nate, Tony, Chris, Cinny, Kat, Erik, Elizabeth and Jen. I am so thankful for all of them, I couldn't have ever asked for anything better. So back to my mom's we watched a whole bunch of game shows and told everyone to get whammies, it was so cool. We watched Match game, the new Press Your Luck, the old Press your luck and some Jeopardy. I love just sitting back and watching game shows all day. I miss it sometimes. So great day, great food, and great fun. The pics will be coming after this. Ta ta.

I'm Just Going Through the Motions

Been busy. School, life, love, fighting, getting along, missing, having, changing, staying. Ya know the usual.

I've been so distracted, about everything lately, I just can't focus. Then again I'm not really sure that I ever even had a solid focus. It's another hard Tuesday. I went grocery shopping this morning, without Chris, that was hell. I had to try and maneuver two carts at once and one of them was very full. It sucked a lot. Watched some Inuyasha, cause Chris bought me the first season the other day. We are almost all the way through it. It's sad though because the other seasons are like $100. See now, I got distracted here too, I just spent a half hour looking at all the coming soon movies on Wal-Mart.com. DAMNIT! I need some drive, I need some focus. I'm not even sure where things are in my life, it seems like once I get a good plan and things are a bit stable. BOOM! Everything is messed up again and I have to sweep it up again into a neat little pile. I'm always a mess it seems. Ah well, I try at least. I'm bored of this now, so I'm going to actually try to get some school work done with those little maggots outside yelling and making annoying noises.

Untitled Until Furthur Notice

Shit has been crazy lately, it's been a constant mix of trying to get school work done and trying to fight back the horrible feeling of loneliness that I feel every night as I sit at home alone in my apartment and often ponder my life. I love my husband and I am so thankful for all the hard work he does for me, but damn does it get lonely. School has been going well, they have been pretty easy on us these first few weeks which is nice because I don't really want to spend all my nights sitting there reading boring human relations shit or trying to figure out my communication type. I talk people tend to listen, what the fuck more do I need to know? No, I know that is stupid, but it was fun to say. This class just isn't any fun, and I know that there are going to be some classes that I don't really like, but what fun is it if I can't bitch about it some where?

The one saving grace for my lonliness is my friend The Erik. I often visit him when I don't want to be home alone. Chir asked me the other day if I was mad at him because I was always so lonely, and I never even concieved of it to be his fault. It isn't. He is doing the right thing and I love him so much for that. but I am visiting the home of The Erik so now is not the time to finish this post...later tonight.