Erik

Well we're down to 6 days now and my friend of all friends I've had has not responded to me, and I don't think he will. I miss him, so very much. We had some great times together as friends. We had a few good times together when we were going out, but the best times were when we were friends. Besides Chris he was the closest person to me. He brought me to God and he just had a way with things, making me understand them and... well you really can't explain him. The best way to explain him is that he is Erik. He is his own person there is no one like him in all the world. I know that God is proud of him for what he does. He is an incredible man and I wish him the very best in his life here. I'm filled with enormous sorrow that he isn't in my life, but I want him to be happy and I'm assuming that this is how that can happen. I'm listening to Creed right now, because that is what he played for me the most on his guitar, my tribute to him and also my good bye. This is one of the hardest things that I've ever had to face and yet it is to most people one of the easiest things that someone goes through in their lives. Not that loosing a friend is easy, but compared to some of the other things that we must deal with in life. I guess having a friend in Christ in like nothing else. He was the first friend that I had that I could put all my faith and trust in and I knew without a doubt that he would NEVER abuse that. He has definitely left a foot print on my heart that will always be there. Helping me to keep my faith in the Lord. For that I am eternally grateful. Our relationship, intimate and not, will be something that I will never ever forget, because he is in fact unforgettable. It makes me sad that he wont have a part in my life married to Chris, but I will always think of him and I will always pray for him, he changed my life like no one else ever can except the change he put in it, which for those of you who aren't paying attention is God. I used to thank him for bringing me this happiness and he used to say that if the Lord didn't send him he would have sent someone else. I don't believe that for a moment. There was only him, he was the only one that could have done that, because the Lord chose him and only him. I now have other friends in Christ, but he was the first and to me the most important. He paved the way for me and my soon to be husband to live our lives as we should, with the Lord Jesus Christ in our hearts guiding us to righteousness. Praise you God for Erik. I thank you for the experience that you have given me. Thank you.

10 DAYS!

Well I'm going to try posting again now that I'm not so mad at my computer, lol. My days have been SO hectic lately. I'm trying to get ready for the wedding and doing my regular daily things on top of that. I had to go grocery shopping today, so right now has been my only free time today. This just got very difficult to type because my puppy thinks he fits nicely into my lap when in reality he is to big. Soon he really will be too big to even try sitting on my lap. He can be such a pain in the butt sometimes, but mostly he's a very good dog.
Mostly everything is in place for the wedding. I have to finish making favor bags and putting ribbons on bubbles, and I need to help my mom make more roses for the cake. After that all I need to do is order the sandwich from Subway and try on my dress when my mom finishes it, which will be soon I hope, then I'll be done with all the crazy details. Actually that isn't entirely true, I need to meet with some girls from my church next Sunday to talk about how we are going to decorate it. This week is SOO busy for me. Tomorrow I need to take Gavin and Naraku to the vet, so Gavin can get a check-up and Naraku is going to get all his first shots and all that good stuff. I can only imagine how much that is going to be. After that I have to go clean some house for my job and then we go and clean the doctor's office that I normally do. Then I have to go to the church with Chris for our pre-marital counseling, which is kinda boring. *sigh* On Thursday I get to get my hair done, which is going to be wonderful! I can't wait to do that and neither can Chris. Our hair is so bad right now, we have so many split ends and our color is growing out so bad. I really hope it doesn't cost a small fortune to get it done. It probably will considering that I'm getting it cut-$18, colored-$30, and highlighted-$50. Plus Chris is getting his cut-$18, and colored-$30, but his color will probably cost more than 30 dollars because he gets his tips done in another color. Who knows, I can only pray that they will be having some sort of special on color when we go.
My aunt started moving out today. She took her cats, so I am now officially a 3 cat house hold, which makes me and Chris VERY happy. Her cats are so bad it is horrible trying to deal with them. They pee on stuff, one of them eats paper of any kind which includes my posters and important papers, and they just don't behave as a general rule. I can't wait until I get this place clean after she is gone, because I think for once it will stay that way. Not that I want her to go, because I really don't, but I want a clean house free of fruit flies, man don't I hate fruit flies and we have So many of them, YUCK!
Well the man that I so dearly love should be home any time now and I want to be ready to kiss him, because as I said earlier I have had a long day and I really miss him. He is so wonderful to me, he understands that I'm going through a hard time right now, being sick with this stupid head cold and trying to get all the wedding stuff done, so he tries really hard to help out and be super sweet to me. He is so great, I'm so glad that I get to marry him. I'm not nervous any more, now I'm just SO very excited to become his wife. It is the most invigorating feeling I've ever had to know that very soon I will be Mrs. Remer. It still makes me smile and giggle like a school girl. :D

Angry

I'm so angry right now, I just typed out a huge post and the program stopped responding so I lost THE WHOLE THING!!! So sorry, but this is all that you're getting.