The Good Life
Well my vacation ended today. By today I mean Wednesday. Chris also started his new job, which he likes so yay for that. This term is going to be a very challenging one for me. I'm taking Flash which looks like it will be easier this time around because I have taken the video and 3D classes which gave me a little experience in dealing with time lines. Even just reading the first few chapters in the book I am already understanding things a lot better. I also have the Flash 8 on Demand book out from the library in case I need additional help. So there is the Flash challenge and there is a very large amount of reading assigned in the other two classes. Science fiction is the worst so far. Not only do I have to read my numerous amounts of books, but I also have to read some pages here on the net. I'm taking a deep breath and plunging in head first. I didn't get a lot done today unfortunately and I probably wont get much done tomorrow since Chris doesn't have to work (yay!).
He has been so supportive and motivating. I know that I can always count on him to help get me back on the right track. If I am down and think I can't get something done he always encourages me and makes sure I do it. I really don't know where I would be without him. It's like there was a part of me that was missing, but now I am finally complete. I'm happy, motivated, and determined to work hard for the things we want out of life. I never thought I would be here. I never thought this kind of love was possible. Eh, mostly all things I have said before, but I definitely think they bear repeating in this case. I'm ACTUALLY happy. I laugh a lot and really am enjoying my life. My broke, at times boring life, but just the same. Still fun and enjoyable.
It's nice to look back on these past years with Chris and I and see how much we have both grown as people and as a couple. All the people who complain about marriage apparently haven't found their true loves yet because it really is a blast. I mean come on I get to see my best friend every day. I always have a confidant, a play mate, or just someone to be bored with. I get to wake up next to his handsome face every day and get told how beautiful I am. I'm telling ya, it really doesn't get much better than this in terms of living with someone and being in love. It's not just love, it's companionship and understand. An unbreakable bond of faith and love. People call me gross and sappy. Definitely not something I used to be. I guess that alone speaks volumes.
I'm being irresponsible of course and typing this silly entry instead of doing my homework as I should be. I'm over excited cause I know that Chris will be home very soon. It makes it hard for me to focus. For like the last hour of his shifts I am always very anxious and unfocused because I'm thinking only of seeing him again. The reading isn't too bad there's just a lot of it that I tend to get intimidated and frustrated. Which is really something I need to work on. It does me no good, so I just need to stop.
This is really cool and I don't think I have mentioned it yet. My anxiety is under some pretty good control FINALLY. I did it by hating wasting time. I thought a lot about my anxiety and the feelings it causes in me, same with my depression. I found those emotions to mostly be a waste of my time. Needless worrying and sadness when I could be enjoying myself and not being such a downer to others. Once I realized how much time this was wasting in my life I worked even harder to stop those negative emotions from getting in. I tried as hard as I could to drown them out as soon as they appeared by reminding myself that they only waste my time. I can't believe the solution was so simple all this time. I'm not saying I'm completely over these ailments, but I'm getting a lot better with them. I still have my days when I'm just intensely sad and nothing will cure it, but overall I'm better.
I look forward to learning about the things in my classes and using them for my career. I have watched a lot of science fiction and played some sci-fi games and I totally can't wait to get into the literary side of the genre. I'm glad this class isn't a breeze because I want to learn all that I can in the short 9 weeks that I have. I say short now, but I can see myself wishing it was over before it will be :). Well I have put off my work long enough and Chris should be here within the hour. Till next time.
He has been so supportive and motivating. I know that I can always count on him to help get me back on the right track. If I am down and think I can't get something done he always encourages me and makes sure I do it. I really don't know where I would be without him. It's like there was a part of me that was missing, but now I am finally complete. I'm happy, motivated, and determined to work hard for the things we want out of life. I never thought I would be here. I never thought this kind of love was possible. Eh, mostly all things I have said before, but I definitely think they bear repeating in this case. I'm ACTUALLY happy. I laugh a lot and really am enjoying my life. My broke, at times boring life, but just the same. Still fun and enjoyable.
It's nice to look back on these past years with Chris and I and see how much we have both grown as people and as a couple. All the people who complain about marriage apparently haven't found their true loves yet because it really is a blast. I mean come on I get to see my best friend every day. I always have a confidant, a play mate, or just someone to be bored with. I get to wake up next to his handsome face every day and get told how beautiful I am. I'm telling ya, it really doesn't get much better than this in terms of living with someone and being in love. It's not just love, it's companionship and understand. An unbreakable bond of faith and love. People call me gross and sappy. Definitely not something I used to be. I guess that alone speaks volumes.
I'm being irresponsible of course and typing this silly entry instead of doing my homework as I should be. I'm over excited cause I know that Chris will be home very soon. It makes it hard for me to focus. For like the last hour of his shifts I am always very anxious and unfocused because I'm thinking only of seeing him again. The reading isn't too bad there's just a lot of it that I tend to get intimidated and frustrated. Which is really something I need to work on. It does me no good, so I just need to stop.
This is really cool and I don't think I have mentioned it yet. My anxiety is under some pretty good control FINALLY. I did it by hating wasting time. I thought a lot about my anxiety and the feelings it causes in me, same with my depression. I found those emotions to mostly be a waste of my time. Needless worrying and sadness when I could be enjoying myself and not being such a downer to others. Once I realized how much time this was wasting in my life I worked even harder to stop those negative emotions from getting in. I tried as hard as I could to drown them out as soon as they appeared by reminding myself that they only waste my time. I can't believe the solution was so simple all this time. I'm not saying I'm completely over these ailments, but I'm getting a lot better with them. I still have my days when I'm just intensely sad and nothing will cure it, but overall I'm better.
I look forward to learning about the things in my classes and using them for my career. I have watched a lot of science fiction and played some sci-fi games and I totally can't wait to get into the literary side of the genre. I'm glad this class isn't a breeze because I want to learn all that I can in the short 9 weeks that I have. I say short now, but I can see myself wishing it was over before it will be :). Well I have put off my work long enough and Chris should be here within the hour. Till next time.
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