End of Vacation
My vacation comes to an end on Wednesday and I’m not really sure if I’m ready to jump back in to school and the like. Not that I really have much of a choice, but I still don’t feel 100% ready. I started reading my management book last night to get a bit of a head start on things. I’m hoping that this term isn’t going to be as difficult as I think it is. The management course and the environmental studies course should be a breeze. It’s the audio visual class that I’m worried about.
Another topic that I really just wanted to avoid, but don’t know if I can any more is Erik. He’s been gone for awhile now and I wish I could say that I don’t miss him at all, but I do. He’s still my best friend, but I don’t know how many times I really want to keep doing this. There are so many things I want to say, but I’ll just keep it inside for now I guess. This time he left because of an overreaction again. He said I was being selfish when I was only trying to be helpful to Chris. He flipped out and left. I haven’t seen him sense. This is life between Erik and I. Weird I know, but I guess it’s just how he works.
With that out of the way…I’ve been wicked depressed lately, more than usual. My mom thinks it might have something to do with seasonal depression. Which I don’t really understand because I already have manic depression, so I guess it just gets worse around this time. Apparently Chris thinks this may be true as well. I don’t really know what to think. I’ve been trying to make an appointment with my councilor for awhile now, but I haven’t been able to get a time that fits right with the schedule that I have to go by. I’m hoping that he will be able to meet me at like Café Bon Bon or something so that I can finally talk. It really is one thing if not another. Things with Chris and I are going well I guess.
For the holidays we spend Christmas Eve and Christmas day at my mom’s, which was really fun and I had a great time. We got to watch movies and just hang out. For Chris’s birthday we went bowling and had a party thing there. It was cool a lot of people came and Chris was really happy, which is what matters. I got the Jason box set which was wicked awesome. One more step to having a completed horror collection. I also got four more movies towards my Stephen King collection. CKJ got me baterangs which was pretty damn cool. One is black and one is silver. I’m going to hang them up by my ax when I get the motivation to do so.
I didn’t really do anything else that is worth mention on my vacation. I pretty much just chilled out and did nothing. I think I spent the majority of it trying to learn how to relax and not worry about things. I think I got an honest week of relaxation out of the whole deal. Well, I’m gonna go spend the day with Chris and try to be happier :).
Another topic that I really just wanted to avoid, but don’t know if I can any more is Erik. He’s been gone for awhile now and I wish I could say that I don’t miss him at all, but I do. He’s still my best friend, but I don’t know how many times I really want to keep doing this. There are so many things I want to say, but I’ll just keep it inside for now I guess. This time he left because of an overreaction again. He said I was being selfish when I was only trying to be helpful to Chris. He flipped out and left. I haven’t seen him sense. This is life between Erik and I. Weird I know, but I guess it’s just how he works.
With that out of the way…I’ve been wicked depressed lately, more than usual. My mom thinks it might have something to do with seasonal depression. Which I don’t really understand because I already have manic depression, so I guess it just gets worse around this time. Apparently Chris thinks this may be true as well. I don’t really know what to think. I’ve been trying to make an appointment with my councilor for awhile now, but I haven’t been able to get a time that fits right with the schedule that I have to go by. I’m hoping that he will be able to meet me at like Café Bon Bon or something so that I can finally talk. It really is one thing if not another. Things with Chris and I are going well I guess.
For the holidays we spend Christmas Eve and Christmas day at my mom’s, which was really fun and I had a great time. We got to watch movies and just hang out. For Chris’s birthday we went bowling and had a party thing there. It was cool a lot of people came and Chris was really happy, which is what matters. I got the Jason box set which was wicked awesome. One more step to having a completed horror collection. I also got four more movies towards my Stephen King collection. CKJ got me baterangs which was pretty damn cool. One is black and one is silver. I’m going to hang them up by my ax when I get the motivation to do so.
I didn’t really do anything else that is worth mention on my vacation. I pretty much just chilled out and did nothing. I think I spent the majority of it trying to learn how to relax and not worry about things. I think I got an honest week of relaxation out of the whole deal. Well, I’m gonna go spend the day with Chris and try to be happier :).
posted by Angel Remer at 10:13 AM
1 Comments:
I hope your depression momments become less. I am so glad you liked the baterangs. I didn't even relize they were two differant colors. I hope to see you Tues night and help fight off the jitters of school and the boredom.
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