Another Late Night

Well once again they decided to schedule Chris for an overnight shift. I kinda like these overnights now because it gives me a chance to catch up on all the things I need to get done on the internet. That and I got to talk to a couple of my friends online tonight which is always good. Actually come to think about it the only two bad things about these late nights is that I miss Chris and it messes with my sleep schedule. It's especially hard when I have a puppy that gets up around 8 or 9AM for like 3 hours. If I'm not on the pups schedule I have more messes to clean up. He hasn't quite gotten the whole paper thing yet, but he is doing better.
I was supposed to make a banner for Chris tonight, but I think he may get home before I even have the chance to. That's ok though because he wanted to learn how to make one anyway, so I guess it may work out well. I'm not sure what images I want to use yet. I know what I want to use for the background, so at least I've figured that much out.
Today was a pretty good day. We went out to my mom's to go swimming, which I really wanted to do one more time before it gets to cold. Then Chris and I went to our church to meet up with a friend and we had a nice long talk with him. After that I came home and finally organized the bills out the way I had been wanting to for quite sometime. The way things look Chris and I should be getting married probably next month sometime. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I know I love him, Lord knows I love him, but I'm a Gemini and I have an issue with commitment. Kind of strange because when I was younger I always said that was a Gemini trait that I didn't have and here I am scared of the commitment that I have always wanted. I supposed it was bound to happen. I know in my head and my heart that I really want to spend my life with Chris.
I'll tell ya there are some pretty freaky noises that happen around here at night. That really sucks because not only is my back to my bedroom door, but I am alone. Now the solution to all this is sleeping on my bed to tiny for me to even think about feeling protected by him. I really can't wait until he is a big full grown dog. That's what I really want. Everyone is like oh you'll miss the puppy cuteness...no...no...I don't think so. He is a pain in the ass right now, when he gets bigger he will be fully trained and obedient, that will be better than any amount of cuteness. Being that I am a woman and all this may sound strange to some of you, but cuteness really doesn't play much of a factor in things for me. I could care less whether or not something is supposedly cute.
Funny how these posts just get longer and longer. I am definitely glad that I was shown this site (Thanks Cheryl!). It helps me a lot to get things off my chest even if it's just blabbing about my day. Hmm I guess I'm gonna get to try out Chris's banner after all, I'm done here and I still have 2 and a half hours. Well Ta ta.

Long Day

Sigh, today was a pretty long day. Chris got paid today, so we went to Wal-Mart and did some shopping. I was happy that we were finally able to give my landlord some more money, he is super great about us having money problems. Hopefully I will be getting hired at Pet Quarters pretty soon here. Chris is at work right now earning our way in this world. He is wonderful for being such a great man, no other man I have ever been with has loved me even a fraction as close as Chris does. It's nice to know that when I thought I had to do all the work and support my man I was wrong. I like being wrong when it comes to stuff like that. So, yeah, we were at Wal-Mart for like an hour and a half, which is standard time when I go with my mom. It's like she has to look at EVERYTHING for an extended period of time. I love her though she is really great. Chris was super wonderful today too, even though he was tired and probably bored he was so sweet all day. I'm so happy about that, I wish there was something special I could do for him before he gets home, but I'm not really sure what I can do. Hmm, I'll have to think about it and see what I can come up with. I have a hard time believing that he really is so great. I know that may seem silly, but I haven't exactly had the best luck with guys, and well, just people in general I guess.
So after Wal-Mart we went to get gas and then to my mom's doctor appointment. While my mom was at the doc's Chris and I went to get some ice cream and we checked out this shop that we had been wanting to check out for a while. Come to find out there wasn't really anything of interest there, except a small house figurine which my mom collects so I picked that up for her. It was kind of sad actually because in this store there was a full kitchen in the back and the guy wasn't even using any of it. Sad to see such potential go to waste, but hey it happens. I'm really kind of hoping that Chris and I can open up a restaurant together. It's something that we have been talking about for a really long time, but we don't have the funds, the time, or the education to do it. I mean we are smart enough I just want one of us to get a business degree of some sort before we start out. I think it would look a lot better for us and we may even manage our business better that way.
Neopets has really lost it's flavor for now. All I do is my daily duties and then I find something else to occupy my time, whether it be on here or some where else. The only other websites I go to are stores and then I get depressed because I can't buy the stuff. Oh well C'est La Vie. I guess I'm gonna go do the dishes and some laundry so at least that will be done by the time Chris gets home.

Love

Love is a very funny thing. It's something that everyone looks for all their life and sometimes, sad as it may be, some people never find it. When I was a little girl I always wanted prince charming to come and take me away to his big castle on the hill. When I got older I realized that things don't really happen that way, so I started wanting those exceptionally romantic men on t.v. that always make things right and happy in the end. As I grew some more I once again realized it doesn't happen that way either. Well love happened to me and boy oh boy was it not what I had expected...it's so much better. To know that I have a man that will stand by me for the rest of our lives is better than any stupid candle lit dinner or long walk on the beach. He tries to be romantic and that is one of the sweetest things that anyone has ever done for me. Never in my life did I think I would find a love as true and real as this. When I stop and think back to all those times I spent in my room late at night thinking about being alone and thinking about how hopeless love was, I laugh. If I had known that I would have something so real as this in my life I wouldn't have bothered with all those tears. Of course if God had intended me to know I would have, but life wouldn't have been quite as interesting. I remember when I first knew that I had fallen in love with Chris, we were watching The Crow and I looked into his eyes and something in my head said "Oh wow you are totally in love with this guy". We've come a long way since then and I have been thankful for every moment. Don't get me wrong, things have been FAR from roses and wine. I realized that those times only make us and our love stronger. Every day I think wow this is it I can't love him any more and then at the end of the day I lay in bed with him and I think boy I love him even more than I did yesterday. The Lord has given me so much strength and my love for Chris and his faith in me and all I do makes that strength more. The Lord has done some absolutely wonderful things for me, I'll tell you right now if you don't have a relationship with him you should definitely start working on one. He loves all of us so much, so much that he let his only son DIE so we could live and be free from our sin. How can you say hey no thanks to THAT!! I know the Lord's love and I know he's got a lot of it. Without his kindness and grace I would be a horrible, sinful flesh shell. How much more rich my life is now that I have accepted him. I only want other people to know this happiness I feel, man is it so wonderful. PRAISE GOD!! Oh what a wonderful God he is. Every thing I have and everything I am, I only have him to thank. I couldn't have done any of these things on my own. Well it's about 4:30AM and Chris will be home in 2 and a half hours, so I need to think of something to occupy myself until then. Perhaps some neopets games are in order. Who knows, I don't really know what I feel like doing right now. Well I shall return another time for another installment. Till Then.

Late Night

Well I find myself staying up late again. For a while I had been doing the whole morning thing, but now I'm back to staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning. It comes a lot more natural to me then trying to sleep at night. Chris, my fiance, has to work tonight, so I'm definitely grateful for the companionship of my puppy. He is so wonderful, his name is Naraku and he is 5 weeks old today. You can see a pic of him from one of my links on the side bar. :D I think I'm gonna finish setting up the links on my side bar now, so I'll write more a little later on.

Marijuana

Marijuana...A substance that I like to think of as my friend. It keeps me happy when I'm sad and it helps me relax when I'm way to uptight. I think people fear pot too much. Now dumb people with pot hell yeah that is scary, but if a responsible person has pot that is a whole different story. A responsible pot smoker will get everything they need to get done totally finished before they smoke pot, however a stupid person will do it and then do something crazy like driving around or something. It just takes some thought people. Now I'm not trying to insult anyone reading this, but if you do dumb stuff when you smoke pot you are pretty stupid. There are ways to handle things responsibly and not hurt any one in the process. Yes pot may cause some health risks, but it also helps some. You pretty much gotta weight the options: The bad side effects are: short term-memory loss and it has ten times the amount of tar as there is in cigarettes. The good side effects are: Helps people with gloucolma, relaxes you, and relieves pain. Among other things. I feel that pot helps people to relax and that is really needed sometimes. Well Now we spoke about the side effects of pot, like short-term memory loss, well I got it and I can't really remember what I was talking about, so I'm gonna go now and ya'll have a nice day! :D

Cheryl

My good friend Cheryl showed me this site and I wasn't gonna bother with it, but I really think this is going to be a good thing, because I can get my feelings out and no one has to listen to me. Thank you Cheryl. You really help me more than you know :). She has a blog here if you would like to check her out go here. If you want to check out my fiance's blog go here.

Here Goes...

I decided to do this whole blog thing because I like keeping a journal, but I just can't find the time to write in one, so I can do this instead. Much easier for me considering that I spend a lot of time on the neopets site. I really like neopets, I've been playing for a really long time, not even sure how long any more. On my main account: hannibalandjack666 it says something close to three years, but I had another account before that one that I lost the password to, and I think I had started that one like a year before, so technically I've been playing on neopets for about 4 years now. Man when you stop to think about how much has gone on in four years it is kind of overwhelming. Things change so fast and so often it's kind of hard to remember how things used to be, but I do and it makes me sad. The world is in a downward spiral that worsens faster and faster as time goes on. I honestly don't want to be around this place when these horribly behaved children grow up. It's really hard to feel safe any more. Just last night a whole bunch of people where out in the street fighting last night, I called the cops and 3 cars and an ambulance showed up. I guess someone was really hurt. I'm so scared at night living here. This place really is horrible sometimes, but then it seems God smiles on this street some days and everything becomes better for a short period of time. I only hope that it will get better permanently some day. All I really have is hope.