Love

Love is a very funny thing. It's something that everyone looks for all their life and sometimes, sad as it may be, some people never find it. When I was a little girl I always wanted prince charming to come and take me away to his big castle on the hill. When I got older I realized that things don't really happen that way, so I started wanting those exceptionally romantic men on t.v. that always make things right and happy in the end. As I grew some more I once again realized it doesn't happen that way either. Well love happened to me and boy oh boy was it not what I had expected...it's so much better. To know that I have a man that will stand by me for the rest of our lives is better than any stupid candle lit dinner or long walk on the beach. He tries to be romantic and that is one of the sweetest things that anyone has ever done for me. Never in my life did I think I would find a love as true and real as this. When I stop and think back to all those times I spent in my room late at night thinking about being alone and thinking about how hopeless love was, I laugh. If I had known that I would have something so real as this in my life I wouldn't have bothered with all those tears. Of course if God had intended me to know I would have, but life wouldn't have been quite as interesting. I remember when I first knew that I had fallen in love with Chris, we were watching The Crow and I looked into his eyes and something in my head said "Oh wow you are totally in love with this guy". We've come a long way since then and I have been thankful for every moment. Don't get me wrong, things have been FAR from roses and wine. I realized that those times only make us and our love stronger. Every day I think wow this is it I can't love him any more and then at the end of the day I lay in bed with him and I think boy I love him even more than I did yesterday. The Lord has given me so much strength and my love for Chris and his faith in me and all I do makes that strength more. The Lord has done some absolutely wonderful things for me, I'll tell you right now if you don't have a relationship with him you should definitely start working on one. He loves all of us so much, so much that he let his only son DIE so we could live and be free from our sin. How can you say hey no thanks to THAT!! I know the Lord's love and I know he's got a lot of it. Without his kindness and grace I would be a horrible, sinful flesh shell. How much more rich my life is now that I have accepted him. I only want other people to know this happiness I feel, man is it so wonderful. PRAISE GOD!! Oh what a wonderful God he is. Every thing I have and everything I am, I only have him to thank. I couldn't have done any of these things on my own. Well it's about 4:30AM and Chris will be home in 2 and a half hours, so I need to think of something to occupy myself until then. Perhaps some neopets games are in order. Who knows, I don't really know what I feel like doing right now. Well I shall return another time for another installment. Till Then.