Oak Street

Man I really hope that I can get out of this town very soon. Usually the standard deal is that the bitches across the street start fighting at around midnight and it continues on that way, however today they have decided to start at 5 o'clock. Yay for me, I hate listening to these fucking bitches. I wish they would just get a restraining order against this girl that keeps coming over and causing problems. I'm so sick of it, how can people live that way. I hate fighting so much. It's like it's all these people want to do or something.
On a much happier note I was talking to my mom today about my wedding dress and I REALLY can't wait to see it. I really hope I look beautiful for Chris. I can't wait for this to happen. I really hope we can go on our honeymoon and have a great time. Hopefully we will be able to stay at the Hilton Garden Inn. MMM, they have a romance package and everything. Well I lost my train of thought so bye bye.

Stress

Well it's been a while since I was here last. I started a new job last week and it's been pretty hectic trying to work out a schedule that works for me and Chris. It's very hard. Another thing that is kinda stressful, but mostly blissful is the fact that next month on the 22nd of October I'll be Mrs. Sarah Katrina Pease Remer. The most stressful thing about the wedding is that I know it's going to be hectic trying to get my name changed on everything. I have to get new everything. Damn I just thought of another thing that I need to change my name on. I just need to stop thinking about it and R-E-L-A-X. I really need to learn the meaning of that word, because currently I don't. I'm so uptight and stressed out SO much that I can't enjoy myself half the time, which is such crap. Not only does it drag me down, but it also drags down everyone else around me. I suck...Well I intended on writing more, but I'm exhausted and my back is killing me, so I'm gonna wrap my Christmas presents ( I know I'm early) and then get some rest before my love gets home. Toodles.

Dellusional

Why have I been left here so long,
Why am I losing my grip on the world around me,
I was so in control of my life,
now it could go anywhere and do anything.
What happened to my life?
My existence,
My reason for keeping on for as long as I have,
My reason for not taking the pills or grabbing the knife,
My reason for straightening out my life,
My reason for making all my sacrifices has gone.
I don't know who is my friend or my enemy,
I don't even know where I am going or what I'm doing,
Maybe this is a dream,
A dream that I can awake from,
When I wake up everything will be as it was.

Complete

The blackness of sleep falls over me,
Dreams and thoughts of you race through my mind,
I awake and slowly open to see you,
Laying next to me in love's embrace,
My heart thumps louder knowing you're there,
As if it's telling me of it's happiness,
It tells me that if I do nothing more than be with you,
My life has been completed,
My life full of love received and given,
Full filling love only you can give me.