The Bright Side

So I realized that every time I look to the bright side and see things in a different light I always have to be reminded that things suck. I didn’t get to go out on my super fun photography trip. It got canceled…twice. I suppose things can’t go good for me for more than a week. I’m just wondering what I could have done that was so bad. Chris assures me that I’m just being crazy and everything is ok, but I don’t know. I’m sad all over again and I’m depressed and well, sad. Things are so strange in my head most of the time. I can be logical and know how things should be, but it’s so hard to actually combat the craziness in me. I just want to scream most of the time.

I’m watching Buffy and it’s so sad because it’s the disc after the one that has the musical on it. As some of you know I lost that disc, so it’s terribly sad because I want to watch it so so bad. I’m tired and I don’t care to blab about my problems any more, so I’m going to go do some chores, since I’m the only one that does them.

Luna Moth

Cute doggy named Trill.

Finally Life is Good

As most of you know that read my blog at least often I don’t write much because of school and such. I’m supposed to be working at school right now, but just had to put in an entry before I started in. I’ve had such an awesome time in the past three days. On Wednesday night I went out to the races with my new friend Tonya. She is wicked awesome; she is down to earth and a total riot. She’s wicked fun to be around and we mysteriously seem to find ourselves in fun situations frequently. Well being that I’ve only been hanging around her for two days besides being at the Red Cross with her, we’ve had nothing but fun really.

It was dark out tonight, obviously, so I didn’t get many pictures, but I did get an awesome one of a Luna Moth and some guys gorgeous Alaskan Malamute. There were too many awesome things to behold this night, so I unfortunately can’t tell you about them all. We went to this gorgeous property, quite literally out in the middle of no where in Buckfield. They had a huge barn and a huge fire. People were playing music at each place, but it was so cool because one was loud and bright and the other one was mellow and dark. Of course I liked the mellow and dark place better, but we spent a little of time in both. I had some beers and it was great. The only thing that could have made it any better is if Chris was there. He would have had such a good time and made the whole night perfect. We didn’t get to go swimming today as I would have liked, but we are hopefully going to go to some falls tomorrow and take pictures, so maybe I can swim there. I’m so excited; it’s only if Chris oks it though. I’m sure he will, but I gotta make sure to ask, because I offered to pay gas money since she has none. Plus I need batteries for my camera and we’re gonna get a map film for her camera. EXCITEMENT! I know I wont be able to get like any sleep. Tonya said she will be getting up probably around two so that doesn’t leave me much time to sleep, but oh well, I’m to damn excited to care lol. I’m gonna get a ton of work done tonight, so that I can just go tomorrow and enjoy myself. I’m gonna take some energy pill and be happy with that and probably about four hours of sleep IF I can get a lot of school work done and get to sleep by 10. Probably not, it all depends on when Chris wants to go to sleep.

Things are going so great right now, I can’t even believe it. I am spilling over with excitement for Chris to meet these people and hang out with us all. It is going to be great, Tonya is the best of course, but just about every else I’ve met tonight and the other night is awesome too. I do have to go and do school, but I’m gonna post my awesome pics for you to enjoy. Just wait until I get back tomorrow and have time to post pics. You will all be exceptionally amazed :). Till then, enjoy yourselves.