Erik

Well we're down to 6 days now and my friend of all friends I've had has not responded to me, and I don't think he will. I miss him, so very much. We had some great times together as friends. We had a few good times together when we were going out, but the best times were when we were friends. Besides Chris he was the closest person to me. He brought me to God and he just had a way with things, making me understand them and... well you really can't explain him. The best way to explain him is that he is Erik. He is his own person there is no one like him in all the world. I know that God is proud of him for what he does. He is an incredible man and I wish him the very best in his life here. I'm filled with enormous sorrow that he isn't in my life, but I want him to be happy and I'm assuming that this is how that can happen. I'm listening to Creed right now, because that is what he played for me the most on his guitar, my tribute to him and also my good bye. This is one of the hardest things that I've ever had to face and yet it is to most people one of the easiest things that someone goes through in their lives. Not that loosing a friend is easy, but compared to some of the other things that we must deal with in life. I guess having a friend in Christ in like nothing else. He was the first friend that I had that I could put all my faith and trust in and I knew without a doubt that he would NEVER abuse that. He has definitely left a foot print on my heart that will always be there. Helping me to keep my faith in the Lord. For that I am eternally grateful. Our relationship, intimate and not, will be something that I will never ever forget, because he is in fact unforgettable. It makes me sad that he wont have a part in my life married to Chris, but I will always think of him and I will always pray for him, he changed my life like no one else ever can except the change he put in it, which for those of you who aren't paying attention is God. I used to thank him for bringing me this happiness and he used to say that if the Lord didn't send him he would have sent someone else. I don't believe that for a moment. There was only him, he was the only one that could have done that, because the Lord chose him and only him. I now have other friends in Christ, but he was the first and to me the most important. He paved the way for me and my soon to be husband to live our lives as we should, with the Lord Jesus Christ in our hearts guiding us to righteousness. Praise you God for Erik. I thank you for the experience that you have given me. Thank you.