Ditched

Well I was hoping to go out and do something different tonight, but I was ditched. I feel so worthless. It seems like no one wants me around any more. I never get invited anywhere and I don't feel right asking anyone to go some where with them. I hate inviting myself, I feel so rude and intrusive when I do. I feel very worthless and unimportant. Chris's attitude towards me lately has been encouraging these feelings. When I try to talk to him he just gets upset and defensive, so it doesn't even matter what I say to him. He tells me that he is sick of me telling him he is wrong, but he doesn't listen when he gets all defensive and upset, he just thinks that I'm trying to attack him. I don't tell him he is wrong, he just starts telling me how wrong I'm being and that he isn't doing anything. It just really hurts me when he gets so accusatory towards me. I'm not saying that I'm just an innocent in all this, I can be antagonizing and bitchy, I know that, but I try to start out calm and cool most of the time, but he feels that I am attacking him and then he just flys off the handle, not necessarily in an angry way, but in thinking that I'm attacking him. Hmm, I have some chores that are calling my name, so I'll be back in a bit.