No Sleep

Back again, I'm currently at a friends house, chilling while he arranges his studio in his new place. Not his place per say, but the place he is renting with some friends. Haven't hung out with him for a very long time, but we're going to be spending the day together which is fun. We will be going back to my house at like 7 and hanging out there for the rest of the night. Not really sure what we are going to do, but I'm sure I can find something fun to do. We have tons of DVDs and an XBOX, Game Cube, and a PS2. Plus we have two computers, and cable, so I believe there is enough to keep anyone entertained. I'm just always nervous that I'm not keeping my company entertained the whole time that they are at my house, because I want them to feel comfortable coming back. I'm just super paranoid as usual. Funny how I am so paranoid and yet I am still not smoking pot. I think I was less paranoid when I was smoking it. Strange how that works out huh?
As far as the whole depression issue goes it's still there, it's still going strong, and still making me miserable. My counselor is helping out with some of the issues, but I'm still having a hard time finding answers to all of my many, many questions. I'm not sure that half of my questions will ever be answered. It saddens me to think about that though, so I try not to dwell on it. I have a huge issue with dwelling on things that I just can't change. Another of the many things that I need to deal with. Well this is my put in on things for now. Possibly be back later, possibly not.