CRAP

Today was a super crappy day. The ONLY good thing about was that I got to hang out with Jay. I met the most horrible woman today. I have never meet a more pompous, bitter woman as her. First she threw a five year old hissy fit when things were decided to be FAIR in the house she lives in. This woman is 62 years old and she honestly to godly threw a hissy fit, the only thing that she didn't do was fall on the floor and kick and scream. My friend's son behaved better than she did while I was there. THEN she brought us home because his other room mate got distracted and didn't. The ENTIRE way to my house which is like a 15 20 minute drive mind you, she bitched and complained about EVERYTHING. She made my friend feel like 2 inches tall no doubt and totally downed everyone she lives with. People who gave her a home when she didn't have one. THEN to top it all off when I went to get out of the car she said " It was nice meeting you and just forget about all the stuff I said, that's an order." THAT'S AN ORDER?!?!?!? excuse the heck out of me, but I do NOT take orders from anyone unless you are my mother or you are paying me and she isn't EITHER. Man I am so steamed about her audacity.
Then when I got home I bitched to Chris for a bit and then opened my mail to find a letter from a bill collector that I had made a previous agreement with to pay them $15 a month, saying that this is their final attempt for me to voluntarily pay them the whole balance. The damn paper even showed the last $15 I sent them. Now I have to call them and straighten shit out AGAIN. I was late paying them ONCE and when I called them, they were like, well this seems to be becoming a habit. I was like WTF?
To further my issues, my mother cat is looking sickly skinny and I feed her just as much as I always have, so I have no idea what is wrong with her. She only feeds her kittens like once or twice a day, and now they are starting to look sickly, so I have to start feeding them soft cat food, which is even MORE money that I just don't have. I'm all set to take my GED tests and get ready for college, but now I'm terrified to go because I don't know how we are ever going to pay back a loan. I want to live in a nice house, nothing big or fancy, just nice. I want to have a car and be able to do my own thing and not have to be a burden on everyone. I'm so sick of feeling like a burden. I want to go to school so badly, but I can't take all this stress of bills and everything. I have applied at all the places I can walk to in this area and NOTHING. I'm so lost. I have NO idea where to go and what to do to get some more money coming in. ACK. What to do what to do. Well I'm gonna do chores, not that it will make me feel any better, but they have to get done.