Life, Love, and Loneliness
Today was a total and complete waste. Chris played his game on the computer all morning and then we slept all day. I'm awake and he is back asleep yet again. I understand that he works really hard, but damnit I want to spend some time DOING something with him. He is all I have in this cold, boring world. No one else wants to hang out or chill except my mother who is like 20 or 30 miles away from me with no car. Well maybe it's not so much that no one wants to as they just don't have the time. Oh well, I've submitted to this being my life.
On an up note I got over $600 worth of art supplies for my graphic arts classes today. I had been wondering what a "tool kit" was and then I get this 37 pound box from UPS filled with tons of art goodies. It's all very exciting. I wish I didn't have to wait until the 5th of January to go back to class. I miss it. I don't want time off, it just makes me think more.
I liked things a lot better when they were simpler. I liked having a constant companion. I know I have Chris, but he is gone a lot. Not his fault of course, but it still makes me sad. I guess I just don't fit in anywhere. The Generalizing Christians think I'm to open-minded and "young" and the Satanists don't like my God. What am I to do?
I've been thinking a lot lately, hence why I don't like the time off, and I have come to the conclusion that words have become INCREDIBLY convenient to people. It's SO easy to say something, but to actually do it is amazing. From now on, I will hear what people say, but decide the truth through their actions. It's true, I think, that you can talk until you're blue in the face, but until you take action on it, it means nothing. I "wanted" to go back to school for a long time, but I never did anything about it. When I finally did I showed that it meant enough to me. I truly believe that if something means enough to you, you will do it. On the other hand it is true that some people just don't have the time to do things. I mean there are only 24 hours in a day and more people spend 8 of them sleeping. Unless you're Chris and it's your day off, then you spend 14 of them sleeping. X-(
I want to go to Wal-Mart, but I don't want to ask Cindy. I'm sure she has been there enough and doesn't want to go again. I do want to get there before the Christmas rush gets any bigger and more annoying to deal with, I have just a tiny more shopping to do, I need like 5 things. Maybe I will just have her bring me there and I will get a cab home. I also wonder if I will go alone or with Chris. I'll tell him he can sleep in the cart :p. I'm in a quirky, sarcastic mood right now. Like I'm in a good mood, I'm just annoyed that Chris is sleeping our time away. Eh, he needs his sleep I suppose, but he does get 8 hours of sleep every day before work, I tend to make sure of it. Oh well, I suppose I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me. I have a crap load more to say, but why bother? Later.
On an up note I got over $600 worth of art supplies for my graphic arts classes today. I had been wondering what a "tool kit" was and then I get this 37 pound box from UPS filled with tons of art goodies. It's all very exciting. I wish I didn't have to wait until the 5th of January to go back to class. I miss it. I don't want time off, it just makes me think more.
I liked things a lot better when they were simpler. I liked having a constant companion. I know I have Chris, but he is gone a lot. Not his fault of course, but it still makes me sad. I guess I just don't fit in anywhere. The Generalizing Christians think I'm to open-minded and "young" and the Satanists don't like my God. What am I to do?
I've been thinking a lot lately, hence why I don't like the time off, and I have come to the conclusion that words have become INCREDIBLY convenient to people. It's SO easy to say something, but to actually do it is amazing. From now on, I will hear what people say, but decide the truth through their actions. It's true, I think, that you can talk until you're blue in the face, but until you take action on it, it means nothing. I "wanted" to go back to school for a long time, but I never did anything about it. When I finally did I showed that it meant enough to me. I truly believe that if something means enough to you, you will do it. On the other hand it is true that some people just don't have the time to do things. I mean there are only 24 hours in a day and more people spend 8 of them sleeping. Unless you're Chris and it's your day off, then you spend 14 of them sleeping. X-(
I want to go to Wal-Mart, but I don't want to ask Cindy. I'm sure she has been there enough and doesn't want to go again. I do want to get there before the Christmas rush gets any bigger and more annoying to deal with, I have just a tiny more shopping to do, I need like 5 things. Maybe I will just have her bring me there and I will get a cab home. I also wonder if I will go alone or with Chris. I'll tell him he can sleep in the cart :p. I'm in a quirky, sarcastic mood right now. Like I'm in a good mood, I'm just annoyed that Chris is sleeping our time away. Eh, he needs his sleep I suppose, but he does get 8 hours of sleep every day before work, I tend to make sure of it. Oh well, I suppose I'll just go with the flow and see where it takes me. I have a crap load more to say, but why bother? Later.
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