Relief

I found out today that even though I was told I would be going to school year round there is actually a little break starting today and I don't have classes again until next year :p January to be specific. That is really great I needed a break after Chris and I's super harshness hopefully we'll be able to use this time wisely and relax together. He still has to work a lot though :( which sucks, but this gives me to opportunity to get some more of my community service done. Which is great because that totally needs to happen, so I can be more or less anxiety free for a while. Of course there is the matter of the co-signer for my student loan that is wracking at my brain and tearing it into little shreds of sadness.

It's totally bogus, it's like for once my life is actually going some where and I have solid direction and I can do something I love doing and am good at doing, but it seems so far away again. If I can't get a co-signer I can't go back to school in January all this time I spent working so hard on my classes and staying an A student will be for nothing. Not completely for nothing, because I will go back to school whenever we can afford it, but man who knows when that will be? We're doing a good job at getting things paid off now, but we still have that $5,000 loan that we will have hanging over our heads for the next 4 years and then we have Brian to pay back, so it seems that we are going no where even though I know we are. We actually have some money in the savings account and I've so glad for that. It isn't much, but it's a start to something bigger and better. It's a start to a future for Chris and I.

Oh crap I didn't even see the time I need to go see Chris now, so we can walk home together bye bye.