How do I always have a new title?

I had no idea what to put for a title today so that's what you get. The enrollment paperwork is dying down for now, which I am thankful for. It's kinda confusing though, because I'm not sure where to go from here. I think I have to get in touch with financial aid and figure stuff out with them, so I'll get on it on Monday. I'm still really excited about all this. My depression is feeling neglected and trying to come visit though. It's been successful a couple of times, but I'm trying really hard to focus on all the great stuff going on right now. Chris and I are ok I guess. Once again as long as I don't mention any issues we get along fine. I really need to remember to ask my councilor on Tuesday if Chris can see the woman that works there, because he needs one. He's driving me nuts with some of the things that he thinks is normal behavior. He doesn't realize how childish he acts sometimes. Its getting insane. He always blames it on me to, no fail. It's hard for me to not give in and be a bitch, it's like well if I'm gonna get accused of it I might as well do it right? That is VERY wrong though and I need to make sure that I keep working really hard to not have that happen. I've ignored all the problems and we've had a good couple of days. I called him while I was at wal-mart and told him how much I missed him and wished I could just be with him. We hugged and laughed in bed for like a half hour, it was really nice. I just wish all our crap would go away. I wish we could start from the beginning and forget all the things that we have done to each other. I know that that is impossible, but I still wish that it could happen, I think if we could do that now things might be better. Chris continuously thinks that I am out to get him, or that I'm trying to hurt him in some way, when I'm just trying to make things better for us. I don't know, maybe I should just lay everything out and see how it goes. Maybe I am being to demanding and asking him to change to much, but there are some things that will just make me insane if he doesn't change them. Maybe there is an alternative that he might need to consider. Not for me, but for him. I want to be with him, I love him, but there is just some stuff that he does that drives me absolutely insane. He says he loves everything about me, but then he goes on about how horrible I am. I haven't said that I love everything about him, because well honestly I don't. There is some stuff that drives me nuts. Ya know it really must have been God at work when we got married, because I honestly can't remember him being like he is sometimes, back then. I don't regret marrying him, but I do regret doing it so soon, he agrees of course. There is a lot of stuff that we should have had worked out before we even seriously considered the possibility of going through with a marriage. I think our engagement was great, we wanted to marry each other and there is nothing wrong with that, but there were problems and issues that needed to be worked through and compromised and situated before marriage. Now there is a feeling of being trapped for both of us and that just adds to the stress and tension when we argue. Chris hasn't said anything about a trapped feeling to me, but I know he feels it. His newest thing is that all his points are invalid, which is bull, but I can't tell him that without invalidating his point, so there isn't much sense in arguing about it. Of course if he does go to counseling there is a worry that he wont be truthful with her. That he'll try to be something he's not so she wont think he is nuts or something, I don't know I just get that feeling. I would like to think that she will be trained enough to not fall for a ruse, but who knows, people are not exactly into giving 100% to their jobs now a days. Man was I born in the wrong time period. I wish I had been born like 20 years ago, so that when I complain about the way things are now, I don't sound so silly :p Well Chris will be home in an hour and I'm excited to see him, so I'm gonna go do something more distracting until then, so that time will fly by faster for me, so till next time.